February 27th, 2006
|04:57 pm - i love my mommy|
Here is me in the late afternoon, unable to do my homework.
Here is me, 12 hours ago, unable to fall assleep.
Here is me, falling asleep, my homework still not done.
i will keep holding on to the things that make me.
i will remmember what it means to be me.
but i will relinquish the memories.
i am not my past.
i am the product of my own creation.
but i am not the things that have happened to me.
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: girl anachronism d dolls
February 26th, 2006
|01:34 pm - no rest for the weary|
i have never, ever, in my entire life, been this terrified.
February 14th, 2006
|07:31 pm - ohmyfuckinggodmytoothhurtsinwaysicannotexplainwhygodwhy|
Because I can never not be miserable, I chipped my tooth yesterday. And now I am dying. I am being smited for my transgressions. I just know it.
I loathe myself.
I have to do work for the first time all semester. Bet you that wont work out.
Meanwhile, I'll just keep repeating my mantra.
i can survive
two fucking weeks.
i am not a poet anymore.
Current Mood: uncomfortable
Current Music: wu tang clan aint nothing to fuck with
January 16th, 2006
|04:29 pm - in this great future you cant forget your past|
so yesterday around 11 emily was like "yea we should go to the city" and i was like "lets get stoned and go to 711 instead"
which remined me of last week when emily was like "we should go see a movie" and i said "lets get stoned and go to 711 instead"
which also reminded me of last month when emily said "lets take a road trip somewhere" and i said "or we could get stoned and go to 711"
in conclusion, where has karin been all vacation?
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: bob marley
January 14th, 2006
im cold and lonely
change is horrifying
i am horrified
my finger is hideously deformed
so is my second cousin
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: the arcade fire- wake up
January 9th, 2006
|07:39 pm - unwell|
i love david sedaris.
i hate the random bruise on my leg.
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: your baby aint sweet like mine she got sauce
January 8th, 2006
|05:55 pm - dirty sweatshirt|
i had a dream last night that karin and emily died and all the boys who liked them liked me instead.
and mary kate and ashley were there.
i have problems.
i tried to explain to emily last night that i cannot just choose a guy and make him my own on account of im ugly.
when you're not ugly, its really hard to understand how the world works for ugly people.
its like a completely different universe.
Current Mood: nauseated
Current Music: bjork- all neon like
January 1st, 2006
|10:05 pm - degrassi marathon and im totally creaming myself|
please stop sucking
continue to be awesome
the shit i deal with....
Current Mood: at karin
December 31st, 2005
|04:52 am - i like these things|
Confessions of 2005.
(x) stayed single
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out in a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
(x) fell in love with a fool (not really even remotely love....but something)
( ) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(x) got head
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
(x) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost a true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
(x) cut class
(x) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent (im good at picking people for my life)
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embarassed yourself in front of the class
(x) fell in love with a teacher (mr mont)
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget (mike!)
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(x) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) visted a foreign state
(x) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
( ) got a gift you adore
( ) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
( ) dyed/highlighted your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a wild party
(x) drank alchohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
(x) did (a) drug(s)
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( ) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
(x) Enjoyed this year overall
(x) met someone who changed your life forever.
|04:44 am - even though ill probably be miserable again tomorrow|
sometimes the world just works itself out wonderful.
some things are forever.
Current Mood: soothed
Current Music: fight test- flaming lips